Running and I have such an on and off relationship. Recently I have loved it, but I fully attributed that to me finally downloading good music and buying decent headphones. The burning in my lungs and the fatigue of my legs somehow becomes fun while listening to "Hey Jude."
I didn't run for most of training week because most of the days were exhausting on their own. However on Thursday my team did not have to meet until 10 A.M. We were stoked! Adam and I decided to have an optional time of prayer at 9 for those overachievers who were looking for a challenge. I was exhausted. This was the break my body was looking for. BUT this was training week which meant my spirit had a much louder voice.
I decided to wake up early. I put on my running shoes, grabbed my headphones, and headed towards the door. That was when I remembered that when I finally downloaded good music it had deleted my Kari Jobe album and I was completely devoid of Christian tunes. "It's not a big deal," I told myself. But it was. I was being intentional about not only avoiding social media, secular music, and anything that could be a distraction. So I said "Hey God, I am trying to challenge myself by running, but I can't do it without headphones. Is it cool if I listen to this music?"
He didn't tell me that it "wasn't cool" if I listened to secular music. Instead, He asked if I would let Him be enough. Wow. That was the moment I had to stop making excuses. God wanted to be my enough. Well, I'm not a big fan of telling the creator of the universe that He isn't enough, so I put the headphones down. Instead of jamming to "Say Something", I prayed. I prayed for each of the members of my team. It was hard, definitely harder than running with music, but it felt glorious at the same time.
During the 9 A.M. prayer time my team had, I took a moment to write down what God was telling me about each of my members. Those simple sentences were later used to speak life and prophecy into the lives of my team. Some of what was shown to me I was privileged to tell them that day, other parts were saved for commissioning night, and some were never told at all. That's not the important part. What was important was that I listened.
I will always remember Thursday, May 7 as the day that I listened. I woke up. I put down the headphones. I wrote down what God told me. These were all three very small steps that set up my day to be remarkable. In these tiny steps of obedience I learned that for each step you take, the Lord takes a mile. God is omnipotent. He has the power to do anything, but I believe that He often waits for us to make a move. What better way is there for us to show faith? And love? And then there are those times where it feels like we keep taking more and more steps and yet we see nothing. I believe that He is still moving. That is where true faith comes in, the kind of faith that Jesus mentioned in John 20:29. Faith in that which you cannot see.
I learned something else that day. Okay, I learned a lot of lessons that day, but one that I have to tell you. Every hour spent with God is an hour spent in victory. To me, God is not invisible. I see Him in His creation, in little things like sunsets and tall trees. These wonders are reflections of their Creator. Man, if those are just reflections, I cannot begin to imagine the mind-blowing beauty of the Lord. Every second spent serving this indescribable God is not deserved yet freely given. And the enemy tries to distract and persuade us away from this! He uses excuses like being too busy or having time later on me all the time, so I bet he uses it on others too. He really isn't that creative. Another way that my time of victory is robbed is when my mind and heart are not fully engaged. It's like I'm having dinner with God but texting someone else the whole time. Sure I still eat, but the quality and purpose is completely lost.
Compared to the insane amount of love and sacrifice the Lord pours on us, He does not ask for much. However, what He does ask for often seems like way too much in the moment. Or like it's not a big deal so why even bother. I am making it a personal goal to look for the little steps I can take, the minor moments where I can say "yes" to God so that when the bigger moments come I already know how. On Thursday, May 7, I put down my headphones. It was one of the best decisions I've ever made.